Scream it Out

For me I have always believed in destiny and therefore, when I met my husband, especially the fact that he was so different from me , I had thought that he was heaven sent. So I totally lost control over my life and handed over the reins of my life to a complete stranger. I thought I would be treated right just like the princess of my dreams. My dream world took control over my life. I have really had a thing for silence and I take the ugly and the good together, not raising my voice despite realizing the fact that I was not being treated well but preferred to remain quiet, for the fear of being seen as a rebel. I knew I would be blamed for my life choice in my husband and so the ill-treatment

not only by him but by his family members throughout cut me to pieces, yet I took it all in "silence".

This emboldened my husband and when I sometimes tried to raise my voice, I was met with such cold treatment not to mention the mental torture that my heart turned cold and I decided to resile to my fate, taking everything with a pinch of salt.

This continued and not wanting to rock my boat I suffered each day in "silence".

Now after so many years I have realized your quietness can be taken as your weakness and later becomes your own worst enemy because everybody presumes that, since you never spoke before, your right to speak has now been taken and you no longer have the right to speak anything in your defense.

This last year, I have decided that I will speak up and even scream out if the need be because the truth should reign Supreme and you can't wait for the perfect timing because that is right now or else it will be now or never and you can't let yourself down because you owe it to yourself.

So my situation can be summed up in the beautiful lyrics of the song "Scream it Out" by Ellie Goulding.

" I think I'll let fate just take me home

'Cause over pain, love is outgrown

I've never won a fight to understand

I just move as my heart commands

I've always had a thing for silence

But lately I just need a voice I recognise

Baby, it's perfect timing now to

Scream it out, out

I won't let you down, down

So scream it out, out."