Nothing Is As It Seems

The ugly truth that caught me unaware was the fact that my husband had lied to me about everything and everyone in his life.

He boasted of having done his Masters from Jawaharlal Nehru University, a very prestigious university in India and that he was a topper.

He had lied about his father being a Senior advocate and chairman of various cooperative societies when in reality he had once been the Public Prosecutor but no longer held the post in a small town in Orissa. He told me they were Rajpurohits but in reality they were local priests in a small village called Doorband. He lied about his mother having retired as Director of Education though she was a primary school teacher and probably retired as a headmistress.

He lied about his sisters being visiting professors to Alabama University and Australian University.

Once while going through his documents I saw he had done his Masters in Economics from Berhampur University in Orissa. I felt stabbed in the back.

He had lied about being born in the year 1969, though in reality he was born in 1967.

I still don't understand the need why he lied.

I realized he is a pathological liar, who lies to make up for things he never has.

The biggest lie was that he said he was a bureaucrat and said he was from Manipur Cadre and later said DANIPS, but till date I haven't seen a single certificate to prove the same.

All these facts were told to me by my Father In Law who even told me that his daughters were suffering from Schizophrenia and my husband was the most self centered person, who was booked for using unfair means in exams and his results were withheld and on top of that he tried to disrobe a lady teacher.

My world came crashing down by these lies that he had been selling me was one big lie, pretending to be something that he is not.

When I asked him, he would just run out of the house and then come back as if nothing happened or tried to pick up a fight so as to avoid the situation. All his life is an illusion and I am trapped in this life. I do not know why I carried on far so long, I think only for my 2 daughters and nothing else.

I still haven't understood why my husband carries on with the lies or what difference it would have made, had he told me the truth.

Probably I would have respected him and appreciated him for his honesty because it is not a crime to be born poor. The lyrics of the song "Nothing is as it seems" by Hidden Citizens sums up my situation.

"Nothing is as it seems

Caught in the in-between

The shadow's disguise

And I don't know why

Nothing is as it seems

Something got a hold of me

Lying in a bed of thieves

What is reality?

Bent and broken

Left it wide open

Everything's crashing down

Standing in here frozen

Truth is showing

And I know now

Nothing is as it seems

Bent and broken

Left wide open

Everything's crashing down

Nothing is as it seems."